I tried going through this past year’s 262 entries and I only made it through February before I started getting angry and feeling depressed all over again.
2010 was hard, and my attitude didn’t make it any better. I understood why I kept my distance. I wouldn’t have wanted to be around myself, either.
It’s been a year since I gave away the bunnies, Chicken and Pig. I don’t really talk about them much. I cry for them sometimes.
I guess I got some important stuff done. Didn’t get any Bs in classes. Worked/ing on some fun projects. Had a couple of publishing opportunities. Learned some really cool things. Got great jobs. Did some wonderful traveling.
All the while I loathed myself. Because I wasn’t myself.
Just imagine what I could have accomplished if I’d been more positive.
I’ll just keep taking life one day at a time.
Try to be better each day.
11:20 pm. Midnight’s too far away. I’d rather sleep now.
Smile, and dream big.