Just watch it. I can’t say anything about it. The video says it all. Wow. Thanks to Annie for the heads up.
Ahem. Time for bed.
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I walked into the store at Union Square today and I had what I wanted in mind and I wasn’t going to wander and be impulsive, but I couldn’t control myself. Walking into that store was maybe a bad idea.
I picked up Bon Iver, For Emma, Forever Ago. This has got to be one of the most absolutely heartbreaking records I’ve ever listened to. Justin Vernon’s previous band split up, he and his girlfriend broke up, and he locked himself in his father’s hunting cabin in northern Wisconsin and came out a couple months later with this album. It’s brilliant.
I picked up Fleet Foxes, Fleet Foxes. They remind me a little bit of the Avett Brothers. I love their inviting voices and folky feel. The instrumentation is fun and solid and rich, but relatively simple. Not a song I don’t like on this one.
I picked up the Schoenberg and Sibelious violin concertos performed by Hilary Hahn. This album is a double-Grammy nominee, for best solo performance and best classical album. I’ve been a Hilary fan forever, and I’m very excited to listen to this one at full blast.
Then I went downstairs to tempt myself with DVDs. I shouldn’t have gone downstairs. Of course. I picked up The Visitor. I saw this movie in the theater, and I really liked it. Richard Jenkins does a fabulous job. The movie is wonderfully cast and acted superbly.
Actually, I didn’t pick up anything I wasn’t planning on getting. Still, I don’t really need those things. The music is incredible and the movie is fantastic. Dangit.
Now, I am watching the 2006 Academy Award short film nominees. This was from Netflix, so as long as I don’t step into another Virgin Records store anytime soon, there’s still a chance for me.
I took the elevator back up to the top floor, and a song I immediately recognized floated into my ears, “Stop Whispering,” by Radiohead, from Pablo Honey. I wanted to cry. I wanted to sing at the top of my lungs, “Stop whispering, start shouting!” The song became one of my first mantras when I moved to New York City. The song reminds me of my good friend, Janine, my first real friend here. I knew about Radiohead before I met her, but she got me to really listen to them. Janine is 5’8″ with a skinny body type and beautiful, short curly red hair. She has a quick sense of humor. She’s highly principled and has a very strong moral compass. We hit it off right away. She received me and my personality and sense of humor with very open arms. We used to stay up late, sometimes even into the early morning, watching movies or listening to music or even just talking. We’d sometimes burst into song in building lobbies just so we’d hear our echoes. Once we met in a Starbucks and we came up with a subject and wrote about it for 10 minutes and shared what we wrote with each other. The subject was “victim.” We went to quite a few gigs together. She encouraged my writing, and I got her a book about songwriting, because she used to be in a band. She loaned me books about depression. I went to church with her a few times. I got to meet her friends, and once I started making more friends, she met mine. She left the city to study at a theological seminary just outside of Philadelphia. I’ve not had another friend quite like her. So when I heard Radiohead today in Virgin Records, it was as if I could hear Janine singing it herself. “Stop Whispering,” in the elevator bank on the floor of my office at work, while we’re waiting for the elevator so we could take the train home. “High and Dry” in the foyer of her apartment building, almost sounding like a hymn.
I miss Janine.
EDITED TO ADD: I’m sticking this post to the front page for a week. It’ll sit here, at the top of the page, wondering if you’ll actually provide some feedback. The call for submissions is this upcoming week. I seriously need some help making a decision. You’ll see I’ve added a few more entries for your thoughtful perusal. Also, don’t forget to stop by the fiction page. Thanks, everyone.
New entries immediately follow this one; scroll down for the day’s musings. Or not.
So, let’s say I might have the opportunity to share some of my writing in a non-virtual setting. It may be church related, but the piece doesn’t necessarily need to be spiritual in nature. Since of late I’ve been kind of lazy with stringing together any sort of original thoughts coherently, I’m going to use whatever’s in the archives here in ma blog. Mon blog? I’ll list some of the entries here for your review. Leave any comments in … the comments.
Go About Your Business – On courtesy flushing
A Study Break Brought to You by This Patron of Organized Religion – On singing hymns during worship service
Time in the Trees – Pre-Seminary meditation
This Is Not A Perfect Metaphor – Gymnastics and the gospel, maybe?
Carry On, My Wayward Mormon – Prodigal and otherwise
Let’s Hear It for the Girls – Favorite fictional females
If you have other suggestions, let me know. I don’t have the time right now to sort through five and half years’ worth of rambling. Also, in order to avoid any sort of awkwardness (minus the “naked” writing), I’d prefer not to share any of my recent poetry or any memoir stuff right now. The former would be very embarrassing if the sub(ob?)ject happens to be there, and the latter is just too intense for the setting.
I love how tired I feel after a swim. I love the way my arms ache and how I can barely move them, except to type about how much I love not being able to do much more than type. I love the heat in my shoulders and the soreness behind my shoulder blades. I love that I could sit here with my laptop on my lap and fall asleep at any second.
It’s like that. Over and over again, on my ear, until it turns red. It stings. It’s hard to have people near me without thinking it’s them.
I don’t know where it’s coming from. It’s constant. Maybe it’s everywhere. And nowhere at the same time. Flick. Flick flick flick. It’s not you. What is it?
It’s distracting, and I can’t swat it away; the sting fades then it comes back. It’s a hurt, but it’s not an open wound, so I can’t see healing if it actually happens. I can’t trust what I feel. Thom Yorke and friends sing, “Just ’cause you feel it, doesn’t mean it’s there.”
“There’s always a siren singing you to shipwreck.”
I’m sorry. I’m sorry if I perceive completely innocent things you may say or do as offense. I’m sorry if I retaliate unduly, such as ranting passive-aggresively on my blog. I’m sorry for taking you for granted, for being completely self-absorbed.
The sting persists, but I don’t know how much longer I can withstand it. Some cool water, maybe a soft pillow. An ice pack. Time.
Please bear with me. I don’t want to drive you away. You’re not the flickers. Don’t let me flick at you.
Oh, crap crap crap crap crap crap HELP! AAH! AAH! AAH! NOOOOO!
Since Bill Lakin found me and took the time to comment, the least I could do was check out his site. I scanned all the links and headlines, and it pretty much made me want to be a roadie or a groupie for a living. What fun it would be to follow some of those bands around! So anyway, I came across a link, which read Patty Griffin, and of course I clicked on it, and in mere seconds it brought me to this article.
Patty Griffin? Singing in a church? For a new album? To be released this year? Very exciting.
I get to see her in 24 days. I promise not to be a security risk. I promise not to clamber on stage and try to get Patty to let me sing with her. That would be bad. My singing voice should be nowhere near a microphone or any sort of amplifying device. But Patty’s, yes. In a church, yes. At the pulpit and, belting out that phenomenal Patty voice under those vaulted ceilings and with what I can only imagine to be incredible acoustics, a million times yes.